http://disqus.com/by/suealspach/enFri, 28 Aug 2009 11:41:32 -0000http://blog.wellspringwomen.com/2009/08/remembering/#comment-15530175<p>I remember a defining moment long ago when my husband was alive. We had maybe three very young children at the time, and we were involved in a discipling ministry at Fort Bragg. We would have planning/staff meetings once a month or so and one was planned, but it was planned for 8:00pm. Since our children were small and we lived in Raeford at that time, I couldn't come but had to be at home to put my kids to bed. My feelings were hurt by this because I felt that my being there wasn't important and I wasn't valued. I tried to talk with my husband about my feelings, but as wonderful as he was, he really didn't get it :) So I went to bed pouting and woke up still resentful and angry at my friends for forgetting me. <br>So I said out loud to the Lord "What am I supposed to do?" " I know my friends didn't mean to leave me out but I can't shut off my hurt feelings?" Immediately I heard two things from the Lord. The first was "Do you have anything to contribute to the meeting? Anything on your heart?" Um, no I didn't. Second was "Don't you think that if I needed you to be at the meeting I could cause it to be scheduled at a better time?" Yes I did! He also told me that if I need to be home putting my kids to bed then that's exactly where he wanted me to be. My hurt feelings dissapated completely and I was fine with it. That was a defining moment in my relationship with God. He cared about my little hurt feelings! :) And had custom-made wisdom! It was just the beginning of many such exchanges. Oh how I've depended upon His wisdom!</p>suealspachFri, 28 Aug 2009 11:41:32 -0000