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Re: on internet hatred: please inquire within.

perfectdenial — Sat, 05 Jan 2013 03:04:26 -0000

hello. my name is crystal, and i used to be very brave. i'm 28 now. 28, which is well past the age of being a fretful teenager who gets bullied on the internet, and yet...

i have been bullied for decades. not just a few years, but multiples of 10. i had weird clothes, growing up. there was a girl in the 7th grade who, for no reason i can possibly explain to you, always made it her mission to make me feel like crying everyday. i never did, though. not in front of her, or any other person who teased me for being "weird", or any of the other various things i've been called. when i was 15, a girl who was supposed to be my friend became jealous of the other friends i was making, so she told everyone we knew that i was a slut and sleeping with everyone around us. at the time, i was a virgin who was still going to church. my parents had low self-worth, and sometimes my mother took it out on me. a handful of years ago, i became associated with someone who has a very large fanbase. their fans told me things like "i am going to lock your child in a closet", via twitter. a few months ago, someone decided they didn't like me and posted all of my personal information on various social networks for other people to see.

i never said anything. instead, i talked to all of the friends i'd made on the internet, but it was different back then. we were the lone few nerds who stuck together. it wasn't what it is now, and those people really helped me through. i don't know what i would have done without them to listen. i probably would not still be here.

i now have such bad anxiety, depression and insomnia that i've got to take medication twice a day for it. i rarely make friends, because i can't handle the constant fear and anxiousness that comes from it. but i get by.

i have a daughter now who is seven years old. my retribution in life will be to make sure that she grows up so much stronger than i did, because the world has become so much scarier. in the last eight years of my life, that has been the only thing that keeps me going.

a lot of the people i talk to these days are either much younger than me, or much older. the older have been where i am and are always supportive. the younger are going through so much worse than i went through. that's a horrifying thought.

the most important thing you can do is listen to people around you. everyone's so caught up in their own lives these days that nobody stops to look around. don't brush it off as "a teen thing" because inside, someone could literally be dying.

i don't know. i just felt compelled to share. nobody's alone, as long as somebody's there to listen.

Re: http://petewentz.com/post/955331780

perfectdenial — Sun, 15 Aug 2010 00:41:27 -0000

oh hey you're right by my house.

Re: http://vickytcobra.tumblr.com/post/924066515

perfectdenial — Sun, 08 Aug 2010 19:28:16 -0000

Did she bring the other kitten back? Please keep an eye on the kittens! If the mom thinks they're in danger, she may try to snap their necks. :(

Re: This blog has been going for over 2 years now.

perfectdenial — Tue, 18 May 2010 23:58:08 -0000

all my friends suck my dick.

Re: http://crystalescala.com/post/290905214

perfectdenial — Sat, 19 Dec 2009 19:59:12 -0000

thank you!

Re: advice wanted from moms and dads (tl;dr)

perfectdenial — Wed, 05 Aug 2009 01:30:45 -0000

Read stories to him. Show him pictures. Take him to museums. Take him outside. When he's old enough to understand it, maybe over the summers when he isn't in school, take him to places. Let him discover food and culture and art and life on his own. Answer questions. Teach him empathy and respect and tolerance. Let him see and touch the world, instead of just hearing about it. Being able to experience and understand different cultures will do a world of good. It's all about showing your kid everything that you want him to see. They're young. They're insanely receptive. It's really easy to teach kids things in fun ways. My daughter is polite and respectful, loves everybody she comes across. I also taught her American Sign Language from birth, just because it's a fantastic communication device and skill. Learning even bits and pieces of other languages and cultures help. When I was 6, I spoke fluent japanese. I ate foods from other cultures. I love everything about people, and I'm always interested to learn more. Just being a good influence rubs off.

Re: if wellness is this, what in hell’s name is sickness?

perfectdenial — Sun, 28 Jun 2009 00:28:09 -0000

sorry about the unfortunate way in which you had to see my vagina.

i love you.

Re: A Homeboy's Life - m. way x p dubs birthday party hard.

perfectdenial — Sun, 21 Jun 2009 22:19:28 -0000

this picture is a total mindfuck. way to cut alicia out, by the way.

Re: dear gravity,

perfectdenial — Fri, 12 Jun 2009 22:57:29 -0000

It is for the NOH8 Campaign against Prop 8 in California. Even if you're not in California, you can show support. Check out http://twitter.com/noh8camp...

Re: shake your moneymaker

perfectdenial — Thu, 11 Jun 2009 06:20:03 -0000

I am interested in this. Particularly for fraternizing with hookers, of course.

Re: A Homeboy's Life - my personal assistant works his ass off. hit the...

perfectdenial — Thu, 04 Jun 2009 03:56:44 -0000

he has gotten so big, wow

Re: "you brought this upon yourself..."

perfectdenial — Wed, 03 Jun 2009 05:47:24 -0000

the biggest mistake you'll ever make in your life is to think you can't do something just because other people say you cant. prove them wrong.

Re: A Homeboy's Life - caption this picture… p.s. some of the shows have...

perfectdenial — Sat, 30 May 2009 20:42:07 -0000

caption: "I'll have what she's having."

and just in case you're a little slow on the uptake, I'm referencing this: http://www.youtube.com/watc...

Re: First go.

perfectdenial — Tue, 26 May 2009 18:57:00 -0000

if you weren't so far away i'd love to work with you :( and i'm too broke to buy/roadtrip currently, but expect something. xo

Re: dear gravity,

perfectdenial — Sat, 23 May 2009 19:26:05 -0000

You knew about the first two and my hair, come on now! and lmao i havent worn the pleather since i was 16.

Re: dear gravity,

perfectdenial — Sat, 23 May 2009 19:24:52 -0000

thanks. keep that in mind when i start putting designs and my t shirt line up for sale! ;)

Re: dear gravity,

perfectdenial — Sat, 23 May 2009 19:24:26 -0000

next time i see you, i'll make you one.

Re: dear gravity,

perfectdenial — Sat, 23 May 2009 18:39:20 -0000

I used to have snakebites and i leave tour-related items at home. i also own pleather and can make my hair quite trashy when i feel so inclined. ;)

Re: dear gravity,

perfectdenial — Sat, 23 May 2009 01:28:29 -0000

love you!

Re: dear gravity,

perfectdenial — Fri, 22 May 2009 03:58:11 -0000

yes

Re: The William Beckett - A half dozen weeks ago I was out on an acoustic...

perfectdenial — Thu, 21 May 2009 04:09:58 -0000

about 165 people have already answered this, but it's the best part of pulp fiction. which leads me to wonder how you could be recording yourself during this scene. i would have waited until it was over.

Re: dear gravity,

perfectdenial — Wed, 20 May 2009 02:34:49 -0000

thumbs up

Re: the lifehigh projekt - hey i would love a message or two. im bored as...

perfectdenial — Sat, 16 May 2009 17:23:57 -0000

when boredom strikes, i play super mario brothers 3. i used to be amazing at it when i was little. now, apparently, i suck. i blame the birth of such things as the internet, and wii.

Re: the lifehigh projekt - hey i would love a message or two. im bored as...

perfectdenial — Sat, 16 May 2009 17:18:52 -0000

hello.

Re: into the sea of something big - got my haircut finally to donate a very long...

perfectdenial — Sat, 16 May 2009 17:08:37 -0000

your hair looks beautiful and that is the perfect thing to do with your hair after it's cut. <3