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Re: The complexity of a dolls sexuality.

orfhlaith — Thu, 07 Aug 2008 18:01:13 -0000

i am so relieved to read this post. When i was five i dreamt of being restrained on Frankenstein's table and being bitten by Vampires on the neck hard. i am glad to know that i am not the only one who has experienced this. Thank you so very much for sharing

Re: Two Minutes and 14 Seconds!

orfhlaith — Fri, 08 Aug 2008 14:48:51 -0000

i was raised by a father who was a drill sergeant in the military. i loved him and hated him. He would always push me harder and i did not think he had a right to push me like that.

i remember his speech about crying. Crying is for weak people and if you want to cry, I'll give you a reason to f*****g cry.

i did not wish to be seen as weak or to give father the satisfaction of knowing he had gotten under my skin. It makes crying very difficult for me.

Re: To love the cunt.

orfhlaith — Thu, 21 Aug 2008 18:35:14 -0000

my sister has had that issue with pain. Her doctor ended up doing surgery to widen her. i had problems with pain but it was due to a displacement of endometrial tissue. That coupled with other female issues lead me to having a complete hysterectomy two years ago (at the age of 28).

Master rejoined the military. He said that when W/we are under the same roof again, i am going to be put through intensive training. i won't see Him again for four months. It is hard after seeing someone every day to all of the sudden have no interaction with Master. i know you know how that feels.

Master really enjoys reading your blog as well as your master's. i thought i would pass along His compliments. i watch His eyes as He reads the entries about training. i can see Him getting excited about the potential possibilities.

Thank you so very much for being so open and sharing.

Re: All of me.

orfhlaith — Thu, 21 Aug 2008 18:51:42 -0000

It is funny how the public perception of slaves is very contrary to the reality. i, too, am an alpha female. i am very competitive and in the world outside of my home, i am the one who organizes and gives orders. It is so refreshing to come home and let that weight drop off and to submit to Master's orders. It is ironic that i feel most free when my will is surrendered and wrapped in my restraints.

It was a pleasure to see you and your adorable collar. Once again, thanks for sharing.

Re: All of me.

orfhlaith — Fri, 22 Aug 2008 07:54:23 -0000

His grace,
Thank you for the compliment. jerusha is Hebrew, it means possession.

Master and i had companion blogs at Open Diary at one point. i was thrilled when i saw that others were doing the same. i do not blog at Open Diary any more. The moderator got his knickers in a wad over the content of the diary. On top of that, the crowd there was really harsh. i got told that i needed therapy for being a slave. i got comments that told me i was setting back the feminist movement. Funny, i didn't realize i had the power to single handedly do that. i also got some comments from vulgar pigs telling me that i should come over to their place and they would have their way with me. i guess they did not expect me to note their diary back and tell them that i belong to one man AND that their ages were probably higher than their IQ. This slave may be submissive to Master, but there is no way i will take crap from those nasty idiots!!

It is so sad that people equate slavery with weakness. It is so far from the truth. i know that i am preaching to the choir here.

Master has ordered me to start blogging again. Do you have suggestions for a good blogging site? I have looked at a lot of them and well, honestly i have been too depressed with Master away to think straight.

Oh, i forgot to mention. My master said it was okay for you to email me, if you would like. He said that He would have asked your master if it was okay if we email, but He is unable to be on the computer while He is Army training. i do not know the rules that your master has about communicating with others.

Thank you for being here. i appreciate it :-)

Re: All of me.

orfhlaith — Fri, 22 Aug 2008 14:33:19 -0000

i tend to be a very private person myself and blogging online was about as appealing as going for multiple root canal sans a local anesthetic. Before Master, i didn't reveal my true self to anyone.

i must say His judgement in this case was right on target. Through blogging i have been able to rid myself of emotional baggage and past hang ups. When i settle into a blogging home, i'll be sure to let you know where i settle in.

Master mentioned He would like to blog on occassion when time permits. i have not spoken with Him in over 3 days. It sure is weird not speaking to Him for so long. Since Master and i have started speaking there has not been a day that we have not talked at least once. i wake in the middle of the night expecting him to be at my side and he is not. Wwe will be reunited on 5 December for good. i do not know if He or the Army will allow me to visit while He is in training at His next station.

Communication will be sporatic at best and nonexistant at worst. i am a strong woman and will wait patiently for my Master to come and get me.

Any word on when you and your master will live in the same domicile?

Re: Improvements To My Slave’s Blog

orfhlaith — Fri, 22 Aug 2008 19:02:44 -0000

Thank you very much for the updates :-)

Re: Unexpected emotion.

orfhlaith — Sat, 23 Aug 2008 12:39:29 -0000

This sounds like a major break through for you. i read this entry and i feel a bit of fear myself. i have walls that i have built and Master has mentioned that i can't live like this any more. It is difficult to let go of the past and allow yourself to be loved and to trust.

Master tells me i am beautiful, but i cannot see it. Others have told me and i brush them off as well. i always told myself that beauty was fleeting so i built my identity on intelligence and accomplishment. The sad thing is i set goals and achieve them and still feel empty. There is always one more award to win, another person to compete with, one more degree. i am such a perfectionist that i will starve myself and workout until i drop trying to meet what i think society believes i should look like.

Re: The perfect gene.

orfhlaith — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 10:47:40 -0000

You make an interesting point. The only question that come to mind is what about people who are "switches"? I find that as confusing as the biological argument for bisexuality. I can understand being "wired" to be attracted to one gender or the other but to be attracted to both genders is something that I cannot wrap my mind around. Maybe it is just social conditioning kicking in and I need to rethink everything I have been taught. *shrugs* It would not be a first time.

This was a very intellectually stimulating post!

Re: Improvements To My Slave’s Blog

orfhlaith — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 10:53:10 -0000

Wifey,
Try looking at this site. I knew someone who used this after having five kids. Her husband said that his wife hadn't been tight in YEARS.

http://www.kegelmaster2000.com/

Re: Learning to speak the same language.

orfhlaith — Wed, 27 Aug 2008 07:49:59 -0000

i can understand his point.. That being said, i would have been hurt too initially. i have heard people say slaves are weak and feeble minded. i challenge those arseholes to submit to someone else's will for a day. Most people are so willful and selfish that they just couldn't do it. It's sad but unfortunately true..

Re: Rules are the ribbons that bind me.

orfhlaith — Tue, 16 Sep 2008 00:51:40 -0000

I hope you are feeling better from that nasty bug you caught :-)

I find myself testing everyone not just Master. It's something I've always done and Master does as well. He finds it annoying when I test people though. He is not used to having someone around that is an analyst and strategist. I must admit I want to find out who is weak and will give when I act aggressively. I'll tell you one thing, I do not respect people who just roll over when I get demanding. I find it challenging when people can go toe-to-toe with me either physically or mentally.

I guess my biggest challenge is accepting "no" as "no" instead of trying to negotiate or debate.

Kind regards,
jerusha

Re: Masters, slaves - I Challenge You To an Interview

orfhlaith — Fri, 22 Aug 2008 20:06:45 -0000

i am sorry i have posted a fair amount of comments on your slave's diary, but not yours. i had to ask my Master's permission prior to speaking with you. Had He not been shipped out, He had planned to ask you personally if it were alright if your slave and i correspond through email (as well as her blog).

My Master has read both your diary and your slave's. He enjoys both diaries. When He has time i am certain that He will post comments (time permitting of course).

i do have some speculation as to why your slave gets more comments. Please forgive me if i overstep my bounds (especially as i have not corresponded with you).

First, i believe your slave's blog gives off a sense of vulnerability. She is embarking on an adventure and pushing herself past limits. It's the genuine stuff that crappy reality television shows try to duplicate (unsuccessfully).

Though you are not my master, i do find it a bit intimidating to approach you. You are obviously very intelligent and i enjoy your blog, but i am generally discouraged from corresponding with other males, especially if my Master has not conversed with them.

If most masters/dominants are male, most males do not sit around writing notes of encouragement to other males. It is hard enough to get them to write a love letter or write something on a grocery list.

My Master checks your blog several times a day to see if you posted. Honestly, i do as well. i want to be clued into why He has a huge smile on His face. He has gotten many ideas from your blog.

i know that there are people who would respond to your blog, but they are afraid to openly because of the sensitivity of their employment. These individuals are so afraid that their employer is watching their every move (with good reason) that they come to Master's house and log into my account so that it will not show that they were on this site.

As i have posted to your slave's blog, Master and i used to have companion blogs, but i received some really negative backlash from the vanilla world and piggish men.

It is a shame that in a day where people are supporting transgendered people, gays, lesbians, and bisexuals that masters and slaves are forced underground.

i really do enjoy your blog. If i think of any more suggestions, i will let you know. i hope this helped some.

Respectfully,

jerusha

Re: Masters, slaves - I Challenge You To an Interview

orfhlaith — Fri, 22 Aug 2008 20:12:40 -0000

You have set up a feed for your slave's blog and i have subscribed to it for both entries and comments and went to do the same for your blog but it said that feature was not working. i don't know if it was deliberate or unintentional but i thought i would alert you in case it was not intentional.

Respectfully,

jerusha

Re: How to Master the Master

orfhlaith — Fri, 22 Aug 2008 20:29:34 -0000

i have an idea. What if you were to take questions about Master/slave lifestyle that were emailed to you and posted the question that was emailed to you (to ensure the privacy of the questioning party) and answer it. i know a lot of people (including myself) who have questions but they are too personal to ask in open forum. Just a thought..

Re: How To Unleash The Bastard In Me

orfhlaith — Fri, 22 Aug 2008 20:40:48 -0000

As a slave, i would rather my Master be stricter with me than lenient. He does know what is best for me. Sometimes, i push the envelope to see if He will let it slide or if He will discipline me. There have been times (early in our relationship) that He would let things slide. i need someone who will be strong enough to put me in my place. i could never serve a man who was too weak to hold me in check.

i do not see your demeanor as abusive at all. i am happy that you are strong enough to care for your slave the way she ought. She is a really intelligent and beautiful woman with a very big heart. You are both very lucky to have each other.

Re: How To Treat Your Slave

orfhlaith — Sat, 23 Aug 2008 12:49:40 -0000

Thank you so much for taking the time to post this. There is a lot of information available about the lifestyle. Unfortunately, that serves as a double-edged sword. More people are calling themselves "masters" and enticing vulnerable willing slaves to do their bidding without taking the time and effort to truly be a master. These idiots want to reap the benefits but do not want the responsibility of caring and providing for a slave. i hate that most people view the lifestyle from what is portrayed in porn. There is so much more..

Re: High Tech Slave Marking - Google BDSM Geeks

orfhlaith — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 10:58:11 -0000

i knew about TSR, but the imaging technology that you mentions is awesome! Of course when we get into bar codes and such on the human body i start getting apprehensive. Perhaps it was because i used to live next door to a religious zealot who used to cram apocalytic information at an early age. Great read!!

Re: A Collection Of Five For Your Pleasure

orfhlaith — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 18:00:43 -0000

Thank you for taking the time to compile this for the community. Every little thing that will make more time in my daily life is much appreciated..

Re: On Being A Lady And a Slave

orfhlaith — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 18:23:03 -0000

i absolutely love your line of thinking. This is exactly what i had envisioned of what i wanted to be for my Master. i do earnestly wish that i could literally be owned by Master. The closest thing (which is far from the lifestyle) is matrimony. The problem that we run into is that most marriages these days are egalitarian. i would sooner slit my wrists and bleed out to a slow death than to be in a marriage that was "equal". A fair amount of married folk are so involved in their own personal identities and goings on that the couple seems more to be like roommates with conjugal privileges.

In order to keep people tied to the Christian faith, most churches have watered down their doctrine. When i went to church as a kid, the sermons/homilies were focused on how a woman ought to serve her husband. i would think that God or whatever else runs the universe wanted all one gender with the same type of wiring and capabilities that (He/She/It) would have made everyone the same gender and able to procreate asexually.

i would absolutely love it if men would be men and women would no longer shun their uniqueness and not try to be a man. i think it is a horrible disservice when a man is hen-pecked by his partner. It whittles away at a man's ego, and confidence.

Something, somewhere has got to change. Though people may nay-say that it is impossible that one day it will be impossible to own slaves publicly, keep this in mind, Christianity essentially started with 13 people and is now a HUGE religion.

i commend the efforts you and your slave have taken to make sure people can make an informed decision about the life they want for themselves, as well as maybe coming around to see the beauty of the life that Masters and slaves live.

Re: Ask The Master And Slave And Be Anonymous Doing It!

orfhlaith — Thu, 28 Aug 2008 21:42:42 -0000

i love that you are doing this *smiles

Re: Masters, slaves - I Challenge You To an Interview

orfhlaith — Sat, 30 Aug 2008 15:15:01 -0000

I was surfing the web for BDSM stuffs and I found this article absolutely blood-boiling! I thought I would share this with you. The following article was written in response to why the media only portrays females as Doms instead of male/female doms.

I don’t know why the difference, I find pictures of women holding a whip absolutely repulsive and I can think of many much more enjoyable things I would like to do with a woman.

I see previous answers have trotted out the great defence of BDSM, ‘people who don’t like it don’t understand’, are 'immature' and even 'unenlightened'. What arrogance!

I don’t like Paedophilia, is there something I am missing there too?

Just because people find BDSM repulsive, it doesn’t follow that they don’t understand. It’s perfectly valid to hold the opinion that someone who gets turned on by violent sex has got something wrong in their head.

The United Nations World Health Organisation categorises sexual sadism and sexual masochism as mental health and behavioural disorder in the international classification of diseases handbook (ICD10). Are they Immature and unenlightened too?

The whole thing boils down to the fact that some sad sacks who get turned on by abusing, humiliating and brutalising women have invented this mystical fabrication called BDSM which excuses the brutality in their eyes, and sadly in the eyes of some women.

If it wasn’t for a few people believing this nonsense, men who abuse to turn themselves on would be known by their true name

The accused.

Edit

Starlight

It’s worse than that.

I do understand.

Why do I understand? Because I did find the person to inspire me. The one. And I know they felt the same way too but a friend introduced them to sadists and guess what? They ended up in an abusive relationship some sick sad sack who gets turned on humiliating abusing and brutalising women.

And before you jump to a conclusion, no they had no ‘Longing’ before sadism poisoned their mind. Quite the opposite In fact, we found it odd and slightly amusing when the subject of sadism came up. Long story short they got chatting to sadists, ironically when I raised concerns I was told that they felt 'safe', I was dumped, and the person I knew no longer existed. Why do you think this is?

My opinion is that sadism acts exactly like a cult, and recruited someone who had no interest in it, to make them the plaything of abusers. A piece of meat to be used and past on. Don’t you ever wonder why abusive relationships within sadism rarely last?

Yes sadism has lasted for centuries; it is named after the Marquis de Sade who first documented his warped desires. Someone I might add who spent most of his adult life in mental institutions and prison because his preferences where so offensive, as have many sadists throughout history.

So you see, its not a case of ‘not understanding’ (again) I understand perfectly what sadists are about. I have read all the dogma and all the excuses, however I use scepticism and I find it full of contradictions and deliberate deceit like all cults.

That’s why I come here and give my opinion, every one is allowed to hold an opinion arn't they?

Except by cults that is.

Re: From Trying To Being Master And Slave

orfhlaith — Thu, 04 Sep 2008 18:38:40 -0000

Wow! This I believe was your most moving entry. I could feel your conviction in this entry. This entry really moved me.

Re: Bondage, slaves, Masters - What Content Do You Want?

orfhlaith — Sun, 14 Sep 2008 23:08:00 -0000

I absolutely love your vision for this site. I am glad you posted the Q&A on here.

I had a vision to create a site like you described in your entry. I have one big problem. For personal reasons (if you want to know them I will email them to you, but I would prefer not to discuss them in an open forum), I cannot disclose my identity or have a site traced back to me or my Master.

If you would like me to guest write articles, I would be more than happy to oblige. I love this site and your slave's site as well. If I were not so broke, I would contribute monetarily. I believe it is a VERY worthy cause. You have my email, if you would like to contact me, my Master approves.

Kind regards,
jerusha

Re: Bondage, slaves, Masters - What Content Do You Want?

orfhlaith — Sun, 14 Sep 2008 23:21:31 -0000

For what it is worth, Sir. I think alt.com is way overrated. If given the choice, I'd pick your site hands down.

Let's see. You've got comics, commentary of toys, question and answers, and wonderful insight into yours and your slave's relationship.

What would make this site better? I wonder if your readers would like to submit TASTEFUL lifestyle-oriented erotica. I know a lot of my friends (non-lifestyle) who read bondage erotica.

I honestly don't think that you are lacking in content so much as the lack of exposure. Do you have a banner that you can have others post to their blogs, emails, or websites that would advertise and link to this site?

I found you through a Google search. One of the things that drew me to site was the fact that it was tastefully done. I have visited other sites and it was mainly pics of naked girls being tied up. As anyone who is serious in the lifestyle can attest to, that is only a small portion of the overall relationship.

I don't know how much this helps.

Respectfully,
jerusha

Re: BDSM As Gay Movement Of The 21st Century

orfhlaith — Tue, 16 Sep 2008 01:30:31 -0000

You are so on target on this one. The United States is closed minded on this matter. I really do not understand it either.

I had a blog at one time and I exposed my lifestyle. I got some very verbally abusive remarks from both genders. The females insisted that I was setting back the feminist movement. I did not realise that I had the ability to do that all by my lonesome self. There were men who commented telling me that they would like to rape me or make me their "bitch". The worst part is that I had a couple of stupid people who noted that they would track me down and kill me. Utter nonsense.

Many Evangelical Christians denounced BDSM as "ungodly" and "perversion". As far as I am concerned they are WAY off base. Last time I read the Bible, Paul stated "Wives submit to your husbands". The old marriage vows read "Love, Trust, Honor and...OBEY". Though the weddings that I have been to have conveniently omitted the word obey. For those folks that believe that God only wants them to have sex in the missionary position for the purpose of procreation, they ought to take another look at the Old Testament, if they took the time to figure out what Song of Solomon was talking about they would probably have their knickers in a wad. I have on tried to educate some of these ignorant people. As you may have guessed, I have been kicked out of more than one church. They said they would take me back if I would apologise and take back what I said. I would rather drink household chemicals than to prostrate myself and beg for forgiveness from them!

As for slavery, America prides itself on freedom of expression and freewill. If America truly believes in freewill, then why does it not recognise my right to relinquish my rights and pursue happiness the way I want to. Hypocrites the lot of them! It annoys me to no end.

Whew! I think I'm done venting for now.

Re: For You

orfhlaith — Tue, 16 Sep 2008 01:37:44 -0000

Aww..that has got to be the sweetest thing I've read in a long time..

Re: Master’s Fault Not The Slaves

orfhlaith — Tue, 16 Sep 2008 01:41:33 -0000

A most informative article. Thank you for the link to communication. It sums up what I have been trying to tell a few people. Perhaps they are visual learners, I'll print this off and see what difference it makes to my tutorees.

Re: Relinquishing My Leniency

orfhlaith — Tue, 16 Sep 2008 01:46:16 -0000

I, personally, would much rather my Master be strict with me than not. I feel safer when I know He will back up what He says. Consistency is always welcomed. I know it takes a lot of self-discipline to discipline a slave. Emotions can easily dissuade one from doing what one must

Re: Milk Your Puppy, Master - BDSM 101 #8

orfhlaith — Tue, 23 Sep 2008 10:55:15 -0000

Wow..this strip fascinated me. I had never heard of forced lactation before. I find the concept quite interesting. I think this particular comic strip is my favorite because it is sure to send me on a research frenzy. Thanks for posting this.

Kind regards,
jerusha

Re: Sexy Free Email For The BDSM Inclined

orfhlaith — Tue, 23 Sep 2008 17:43:31 -0000

I am interested but I must first ask Master's permission. Hopefully He will call soon..

Thank you for your generousity :-)

Kind Regards,
jerusha