DISQUS

I was in the middle of my second homebirth, ready to crown, with my midwife doing some perineal massage to help the tissues stretch. At first I was uncomfortable with it, as I was in a lot of pain and didn't want anyone touching me "down there". Then my first contraction hit that gave me the first real urge to push. My midwife continued massaging me and urged me to push a little. I gave a push, and bore down hard. There was no stopping the urge now. The pain and burning were too intense. The midwife told me to slow down and breath through the next contraction to let the tissues stretch. Do you know how hard that was? All I could think of was the nurning and intense pain of my body begging me to bear down. "It burns!" was all i could mutter through the pants. "I have to push!" But the mnidwife was insistent, telling me she didn't want me to tear, but I would if I didn't slow things down. She then showed me a little trick. The contraction started and it was all I could do to not push. The midwife continued her perineal massage, and then I felt her fingers gently massaging my clit. It took me by surprise, but was instantly pleasurable. I started to moan again, this time with pleasure. IT was enough to relax me, and let my tissues stretch gently. She continued it witht he next contraction, and I pushed down again, feeling both pleasure and pain, but climaxing as the head slid out. I looked down as I felt my body contract once more and the rest of the child slide out. I didn't believe it either, but it can happen.