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7 months ago
in 2008/11/20/19-year-old-lifecaster-commits-suicide-on-justintv-smcb/ on Mashable - The Social Media Guide
"Obviously butthurt over life, Candyjunkie proceeds to post a goodbye thread on a bodybuilding forum to inform the people of his commitment to an hero.
ALL TIMES EST
* Nov 19, 2008 4:56 AM: User CandyJunkie of BodyBuilding forums create a topic in the misc subforum announcing his intended suicide.
Thread: Ask a guy who is gonna OD (again) tonight anything,: http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showthread.php?p=...
* Nov 19, 2008 5:17-5:18 AM: CandyJunkie lists the drugs he has taken and will overdose on: 16mg xanax, 7 roxies, 3 ultram and lexapro as his remaining drug. He leaves a copypasta suicide note.
Thread: I'm gonna have 40 2mg bars of Xanax Tonight! http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showthread.php?t=...
Thread: I'm trippin on bars on my webcam http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showthread.php?t=...
* Nov 19, 2008 5:32-5:51 AM: User izaktj reports CandyJunkie is trying to sleep. Miscers play around with the thought of calling the cops, but ultimately shrug off the issue and thread. CandyJunkie's webcam continues to roll as he lays motionless during the 6 hours the thread is ignored.
* Nov 19, 2008 12:04 PM: User baby_matty bumps thread, stating that CandyJunkie is "still laying there." Posters begin to suspect that CandyJunkie is no longer breathing because of the lack of movement on his webcam, pertaining to the expanding of the ribcage during respiration.
* Nov 19, 2008 1:03 PM: After alerting forum moderators, user AlexNipples receives controversial response from moderator "Roxie" regarding taking action to save CandyJunkie's life.
* Nov 19, 2008 1:05 PM: User IVEverLow posts thread linking to CandyJunkie's phone number. A few minutes later, user Eshamed51 calls, is forwarded to voicemail and leaves infamous message "Do it faggot." Posters begin to discuss CandyJunkie's lack of movement as a sign of death or drug induced coma.
* Nov 19, 2008 1:53 PM: User Bulker reports CandyJunkie's personal information, including name and number: Abraham Briggs; 954.918.1247. Suggests that they call cops. Posters discuss the legitimacy of the broadcast, considering the possibility that the video is a still image or on a loop.
* Nov 19, 2008 2:09 PM: Users take action. Bulker sends failed email to Miami police department, posts the Miami Police department contact information and urges other posters to contact.
* Nov 19, 2008 2:32 PM: Bulker calls Miami Police department 3 times with success, but fails to convey the urgency in his message.
* Nov 19, 2008 2:41 PM: User mophatthedamaja confirms CandyJunkie's suicide note is indeed copypasta, while Normg002 posts link to CandyJunkie's myspace page.
* Nov 19, 2008 2:55 PM: User jjlee138 announces successful communication with police; reports they are en route to CandyJunkie's location.
* Nov 19, 2008 3:30 PM: Live on webcam, Broward County police break down CandyJunkie's door and secures the area for an EMT to enter. A cop covers the webcam. The broadcast ends.
Forced entry to scene of an hero http://www.vkmag.com/videos/videos_man_pleegt_z...
* Nov 19, 2008 10:58 PM: Unconfirmed reports regarding Abraham's status.
[edit] The Note
M-I-C-K-E-Y...
M-I-C-K-E-Y...
This note has been confirmed to be copypasta.
To Whom It May Concern, I am going to leave this for whoever stumbles across my bookmarks later on. I hate myself and I hate living. I think that if someone who knows me reads this they will know who I am. So I will leave this unsigned. I am an a@#hole. I have let everyone down and I feel as though I will never change or never improve. I am in love with a girl and I know that I am not good enough for her. I have come to believe that my life has all been meaningless. I keep trying and I keep failing. I have thought about and attempted suicide many times in the past. I used to think of my failure as some mystical way of telling me that I was really meant for something meaningful. The only thing I dread, besides the pain, is the way my family will suffer. I do not want my mother or father to think that it was anything they did that lead me to kill myself. I never really had any plans of leaving a note. I thought that I would not be able to describe why I want to do this and I am right. There is no way to tell you or anyone else why I dread every new day. My father had such high expectations for me and tried to give me every opportunity to improve upon myself. I let him down. I think that I am a major disappointment to him. I have a job but I?m always broke and I am in college but barely, I show up to class but that?s about it. I want my life to end. I am tired of f@#$ing up everything. I am tired of people always telling me that they do not like me. I am tired of trying to be decent. I hope that someone finds this post and I hope that my parents know that I f@#$ed up not them. It is my fault I screwed up my own life. The hate that rages within me, rages not for those I love so dearly or those who have crossed my path. This hate rages full force towards me and only me. I have long forgiven those who've hurt me, but I have not and cannot come to terms to forgive myself for the things I have done to myself, and the things I've done to hurt those in my life. You have all touched my life in one way or another, especially those whom I call family. I cannot tell you how sorry I am for ending my life the way I did. I hope that you can all find it in your heart to see it as way for me not suffering anymore and that I am finally at rest with myself, for being at rest with the guilt that constantly ate at me for so long. Please forgive me all for taking my own life so early. I tried so hard to fight against this strong battle. I have reached out for help so many times, and yet I believe, I was turned away because of the things I did, that it is a punishment I am willing to take, for I know that being who I am has only brought myself and others pain. I love you all and will forever live within the memories we created. Forgive me. Love always and forever, As for my signature I will leave you with a quote so that if anyone reads this they will know it's me, "Can?t feel pain if your dead? Just Saying"
"
ALL TIMES EST
* Nov 19, 2008 4:56 AM: User CandyJunkie of BodyBuilding forums create a topic in the misc subforum announcing his intended suicide.
Thread: Ask a guy who is gonna OD (again) tonight anything,: http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showthread.php?p=...
* Nov 19, 2008 5:17-5:18 AM: CandyJunkie lists the drugs he has taken and will overdose on: 16mg xanax, 7 roxies, 3 ultram and lexapro as his remaining drug. He leaves a copypasta suicide note.
Thread: I'm gonna have 40 2mg bars of Xanax Tonight! http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showthread.php?t=...
Thread: I'm trippin on bars on my webcam http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showthread.php?t=...
* Nov 19, 2008 5:32-5:51 AM: User izaktj reports CandyJunkie is trying to sleep. Miscers play around with the thought of calling the cops, but ultimately shrug off the issue and thread. CandyJunkie's webcam continues to roll as he lays motionless during the 6 hours the thread is ignored.
* Nov 19, 2008 12:04 PM: User baby_matty bumps thread, stating that CandyJunkie is "still laying there." Posters begin to suspect that CandyJunkie is no longer breathing because of the lack of movement on his webcam, pertaining to the expanding of the ribcage during respiration.
* Nov 19, 2008 1:03 PM: After alerting forum moderators, user AlexNipples receives controversial response from moderator "Roxie" regarding taking action to save CandyJunkie's life.
* Nov 19, 2008 1:05 PM: User IVEverLow posts thread linking to CandyJunkie's phone number. A few minutes later, user Eshamed51 calls, is forwarded to voicemail and leaves infamous message "Do it faggot." Posters begin to discuss CandyJunkie's lack of movement as a sign of death or drug induced coma.
* Nov 19, 2008 1:53 PM: User Bulker reports CandyJunkie's personal information, including name and number: Abraham Briggs; 954.918.1247. Suggests that they call cops. Posters discuss the legitimacy of the broadcast, considering the possibility that the video is a still image or on a loop.
* Nov 19, 2008 2:09 PM: Users take action. Bulker sends failed email to Miami police department, posts the Miami Police department contact information and urges other posters to contact.
* Nov 19, 2008 2:32 PM: Bulker calls Miami Police department 3 times with success, but fails to convey the urgency in his message.
* Nov 19, 2008 2:41 PM: User mophatthedamaja confirms CandyJunkie's suicide note is indeed copypasta, while Normg002 posts link to CandyJunkie's myspace page.
* Nov 19, 2008 2:55 PM: User jjlee138 announces successful communication with police; reports they are en route to CandyJunkie's location.
* Nov 19, 2008 3:30 PM: Live on webcam, Broward County police break down CandyJunkie's door and secures the area for an EMT to enter. A cop covers the webcam. The broadcast ends.
Forced entry to scene of an hero http://www.vkmag.com/videos/videos_man_pleegt_z...
* Nov 19, 2008 10:58 PM: Unconfirmed reports regarding Abraham's status.
[edit] The Note
M-I-C-K-E-Y...
M-I-C-K-E-Y...
This note has been confirmed to be copypasta.
To Whom It May Concern, I am going to leave this for whoever stumbles across my bookmarks later on. I hate myself and I hate living. I think that if someone who knows me reads this they will know who I am. So I will leave this unsigned. I am an a@#hole. I have let everyone down and I feel as though I will never change or never improve. I am in love with a girl and I know that I am not good enough for her. I have come to believe that my life has all been meaningless. I keep trying and I keep failing. I have thought about and attempted suicide many times in the past. I used to think of my failure as some mystical way of telling me that I was really meant for something meaningful. The only thing I dread, besides the pain, is the way my family will suffer. I do not want my mother or father to think that it was anything they did that lead me to kill myself. I never really had any plans of leaving a note. I thought that I would not be able to describe why I want to do this and I am right. There is no way to tell you or anyone else why I dread every new day. My father had such high expectations for me and tried to give me every opportunity to improve upon myself. I let him down. I think that I am a major disappointment to him. I have a job but I?m always broke and I am in college but barely, I show up to class but that?s about it. I want my life to end. I am tired of f@#$ing up everything. I am tired of people always telling me that they do not like me. I am tired of trying to be decent. I hope that someone finds this post and I hope that my parents know that I f@#$ed up not them. It is my fault I screwed up my own life. The hate that rages within me, rages not for those I love so dearly or those who have crossed my path. This hate rages full force towards me and only me. I have long forgiven those who've hurt me, but I have not and cannot come to terms to forgive myself for the things I have done to myself, and the things I've done to hurt those in my life. You have all touched my life in one way or another, especially those whom I call family. I cannot tell you how sorry I am for ending my life the way I did. I hope that you can all find it in your heart to see it as way for me not suffering anymore and that I am finally at rest with myself, for being at rest with the guilt that constantly ate at me for so long. Please forgive me all for taking my own life so early. I tried so hard to fight against this strong battle. I have reached out for help so many times, and yet I believe, I was turned away because of the things I did, that it is a punishment I am willing to take, for I know that being who I am has only brought myself and others pain. I love you all and will forever live within the memories we created. Forgive me. Love always and forever, As for my signature I will leave you with a quote so that if anyone reads this they will know it's me, "Can?t feel pain if your dead? Just Saying"
"
1 reply
Davidthefat
Honestly I admit the wiki people has done a way better job than all of you new sites (no hate)
7 months ago
in 2008/11/20/19-year-old-lifecaster-commits-suicide-on-justintv-smcb/ on Mashable - The Social Media Guide
WOW... More and MORE sites are putting this story up... Im sick of going on every site and trying to explain this from a the forums POV...
1 reply
Brandy
It's sad, yes, but no one could have known he was serious. This is what happens on the internet, every moment of every day... ESPECIALLY on forum sites. When I was like, TWELVE back in the 90's on AOL in the chatrooms - it was the same there! It will not change with laws, or more rules, it will not change REGARDLESS of any stipulations you put up.... it will not change EVER. That's the sad truth... sorry to say...
7 months ago
in 2008/11/20/19-year-old-lifecaster-commits-suicide-on-justintv-smcb/ on Mashable - The Social Media Guide
Damn… Shit got real… I saw the video of it my self but I was not part of this suicide… Im just 14 people… I was on the Teen Misc not the Misc most of the time…
ust to tell you, bodybuilding.com is down right now, IDK if its because of this or the guys buying stock share from it or something…
People, damn… Why do you think it was our fault? You guys werent even there… The comments about “Go do it†or what ever were from trolls, troll are people that have nothing else to do but make people’s lives miserable, there were tons and tons of troll on bodybuilding.com, some posting sick pics and some bull shitting about their identity or stats (body weight and lifting stats)
Honestly, why did it take like 24 hours to get on the news sties like this? its should be faster
Oh yea, if you do look at his post history, he was considered a troll , its like the boy who cried wolf, he posted so much bull shit that when he was actually serious, no one believed him… well its his fault, do not put any blame on bodybuilding.com…
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ust to tell you, bodybuilding.com is down right now, IDK if its because of this or the guys buying stock share from it or something…
People, damn… Why do you think it was our fault? You guys werent even there… The comments about “Go do it†or what ever were from trolls, troll are people that have nothing else to do but make people’s lives miserable, there were tons and tons of troll on bodybuilding.com, some posting sick pics and some bull shitting about their identity or stats (body weight and lifting stats)
Honestly, why did it take like 24 hours to get on the news sties like this? its should be faster
Oh yea, if you do look at his post history, he was considered a troll , its like the boy who cried wolf, he posted so much bull shit that when he was actually serious, no one believed him… well its his fault, do not put any blame on bodybuilding.com…
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Davidthefat
Just to give you a little background on the MISC(the section he was mostly active in an where the threads were), if StudyBabes went on that site with that profile pic, she would be nagged and nagged for nude pics of her, honestly its not a serious forum, nothing much is taken serious there (but some females actually did give nudes, which I didnt get any of) NOTHING ON THE MISC IS EVER TAKEN SERIOUSLY... Thats why people were "teasing" him and stuff
Ash Bel
Mark, your remarks are selfish.
Speak for yourself. Your aside is an insult to those who are concerned with health and fitness.
I know plenty of fitness/geeks.
Just because you don't consider keeping healthy and in shape a worthy pursuit doesn't mean you can subtly castigate those who care about both.
Speak for yourself. Your aside is an insult to those who are concerned with health and fitness.
I know plenty of fitness/geeks.
Just because you don't consider keeping healthy and in shape a worthy pursuit doesn't mean you can subtly castigate those who care about both.
