I just want to say that I'm proud of you for your strength.My childhood was similar to yours.I never wanted to be like my parents.I started having kids at 15 by 21 had 3 boys. Unfortunately I was'nt as strong as you. I'm 32 and a grandmother I've been struggling with this addiction for 3 yrs.I'm ready to quit,this is the first time I ever told this to a stranger.I give you props.Only the strong survive!! take care