DISQUS

Nothing can prepare one for such a loss. My thoughts are with you.

Your words about distance are haunting and one can feel your longing. I will say however, that distance does something to desire. I think it maintains and amplifies it, making it bigger and more meaningful. Sometimes this is bad, and sometimes, it is very very good. All of us old enough to have passed thru a few meaningful relationships know that when we get to the part where we live together, things change. The distance collapses into a soothing togetherness, but can lack the mountains of desire that build up over a period of separation.

The world of electronic communication has created new ways to live and to love, and all of us that care to participate are living experiments in this environment. That you have nurtured your love and desire over thousands of miles is a testament to the human spirit AND to the effectiveness of these new tools that shape our interactions. Believe it or not, you are a role model for those of us that search for success in our long-distance relationships.

Thank you for sharing, once again.

It may sound ironic, but there are times that I am so caught up in training or using my Slave that I actually forget to allow myself pleasure, to follow my own desires; the focus is so clearly on her development and training or pleasure. In these times I fall into a 'teacher' mode where the slave/pupil is the focus, and 'my wishes' are transformed into a series of sensual and sexual experiences primarily designed with her pain or pleasure in mind. In a word, I lose myself in her. It is this empathic bond that transforms me, attracts me.

Of course there are times when really, its all about me.

Thanks for the blog(s). They are endlessly fascinating.

M.

When I got to the end of your post I almost shouted. To see your face and beautiful brown eyes peering out at us, was a quite a surprise! Thanks for sharing. Now I'm wondering what kind of gag is hidden beneath that very dolly-like pink leather. And of course, I would love to see more photos of you and your training.

Once again, thanks for having the courage to share.

I appreciate the more detailed report. As a Dom I am ever curious and endlessly fascinated by the physical and mental states of Sub/Slave folks. Your post filled in the information I wanted, and gave me a vicarious thrill, allowing me to participate in your own experience.

24/7 hole stuffed month is such a great project, I was waiting to hear a report on it. I'm glad you were able to share, but am curious about it. What size devices did you use? Did you alternate holes? Were there times of difficulty, and how did you overcome? I would love to hear more about your training in this over the last month.

Good luck with the troatcunt training.

M.

I'm vicariously enjoying your humiliation in regards to the enema and looking forward to more about this. It actually brings up a question I had regarding your preparations for ass play. I have wondered while reading your posts if you had used an enema to clean yourself before training your ass-cunt. I assume now that the answer is no.

Thanks again for the effort you put in to your journal.

M.

I have just spent the last week moving from your first entry to this, the latest. I read every moment I could, and always curious to discover more of your journey. Although I have many things I'd love to say, I can really only wrap my head around what a brave and difficult thing it is that you are doing. You are lucky to have a Master who can devote such energy to training you, as he is to having someone so dedicated and highly sexual.

Thanks for writing! I look forward to reading more.

M