http://disqus.com/by/naturegal/enWed, 31 May 2023 17:30:30 -0000https://www.brightlineeating.com/FoodFreedom-Jun23/video1#comment-6197909186<p>Too many voices in my head! But we will all be there for BC2.0!</p>naturegalWed, 31 May 2023 17:30:30 -0000https://www.brightlineeating.com/FoodFreedom-Jun23/video1#comment-6197908714<p>I'll be there!</p>naturegalWed, 31 May 2023 17:29:49 -0000https://www.brightlineeating.com/FoodFreedom-Jun23/video1#comment-6197288743<p>100% me. The senseless craving that is undefined. Walking the aisles craving something, not knowing what, then buying (and eating) it all (even if part of me is screaming Noooooo!), only to later be sick, and feeling defeated. Afterwards, feeling confident that was the last time, and the next morning feeling 100% on board, only to fall back into that rut by the time I head home from work, and the cycle begins all over again. It's like I'm two entirely different people!</p><p>I may "know" all this intellectually, and preach the BLE gospel, and eat every meal Bright, but in secret I am sneaking NMF. Just like a closet alcoholic.</p><p>My brain has been hijacked, and I feel totally defeated by it. Even though I was successful with BLE for 2 months, and even though (or perhaps because) I continued to loose weight when not 100% Bright for another 5 months, I've now been completely in the ditch for 1.5 years and honestly feel this is how it's going to be from now on. I want so much to be back on board, but have no faith in my ability to do it again. Defeated before I start.</p><p>My life situation is not helping, but I also feel I may be using it as a crutch...letting the sympathy from others fuel the "it's okay...be kind to yourself...it's not your fault" litany from others, which is its own kind of drug.</p><p>The whiney kid, the self-pitying adult, the defeatist - they all rule the roost, and it's all in the brain. Snapping out if it is hard. So hard. And it is so easy to give up and give in. But I know it is possible. I've seen/felt it work. Not giving in to those voices/the cravings is the key.</p><p>(Can you tell it's been a bad day?)</p>naturegalTue, 30 May 2023 22:49:29 -0000http://www.bugshutterbug.com/?p=659#comment-16418570<p>Several years ago I came across a similar pod and brought it into my office. Unlike you, however, I didn't put it into any sort of containment, so when mine hatched, they covered the window screen - hundreds of them! Next time, I'll use a container!</p><p>Nice blog, btw. </p>naturegalFri, 11 Sep 2009 09:42:59 -0000