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boy2 — Thu, 26 Feb 2009 21:36:02 -0000

i've only had three "things" in my entire 18 years of life, people that i've had more than a one time, casual encounter with. Each one of them has proved to disappoint me in the same way. When their feelings started to change, they just stopped talking to me. Boys 1 and 3 were not that serious. They were mostly physical relationships, but it still hurt when they just started to ignore me. What hurt the most, however, was when Boy 2 ended things. I'll start from the beginning...

We met in the early summer. Technically, we worked together, but never the same shift because he was super dedicated to this one sport and it really ate up his time. He was very unique- eccentric, free-spirited, independent and quirky. I was totally into it. I'm pretty much his opposite so i was very intrigued by the differences between us. I expressed my interest to a mutual friend and he was SHOCKED. I guess i wasn't the only one who thought we were really different...The mutual friend gave Boy 2 my number and he texted me that night! I was very excited.

We began texting and it was going well. It was hard to tell if he was into it because he isn't a naturally flirty guy and isn't used to girls coming after him, but our mutual friend assured me that he definitely was. Eventually, we drunkenly hooked up. The day after I left for the beach for a week, but we texted non-stop with him initiating it most of the time.

When i returned from the beach we went on our first real date. It was pretty awkward, but I was definitely still intrigued by this kid. He was so different and exactly what I was looking for. We continued texting and talking and began haninging out a lot. He was pretty romantic. We would go to these parks and just sit and talk, watch DVDs in his room, go into the city and do all kinds of different things i couldnt imagine boy 1 and 3 ever doing with me. He was a breath of fresh air and made me feel comfortable and excited about possibly making this more than a "thing."

Right now he probably sounds like a really great guy, right? Well, he's not. We began to advance physically and for me, that meant I should probably take time to re-evaluate where this thing with Boy 2 was going. I wanted to take things to the next level, but I wanted to know what he wanted without him knowing my thoughts. I decided to IM him one day, figuring that it wouldn't be a big deal and that we'd be on the same page. Boy, was I wrong. Boy 2 served me with a big slap in the face. He told me that he didn't think it was right for the two of us to hook up any more because we had "nothing in common." He thought we had totally different interests, even though i could still give you 10 things we both liked. I was shocked. It was teh last thing i was expecting to hear from him. I knew it ultimately wouldn't work because we go to diffferent schools and run in different crowds, but I thought it was going to be my decision in the end. I accepted what he had to say and basically did a lot of listening. I was speechless.

After a few days of no talking, I decided to write him a letter responding to the "ending" conversation we had. I had done a lot of thinking and had organized my thoughts. I didn't necessarily want him to reconsider his decision, but I wanted to tell him what I had thought of our whole "thing."

About a week later, I was at a party and had gotten no response to my letter (which I sent via fbook message). I was drunk and decided to text the asshole and call him out on his asshole-y behavior. He explained that he meant to respond (riiiight.) and that he was just trying to figure things out. He then went on to tell me that the entire three months we had been together he had been in love with some other girl who had a boyfriend she hated. This hurt the most. I had invested time, smiles and texts in Boy 2 and he had played me for a fool. He claimed he thought it was just going to be a casual thing, but every time he got drunk with me, he would keep hooking up with me. This doesn't explain the multiple SOBER texts, hook-ups and dates, but whatever.

It's been a little bit since Boy 2 broke the news to me and i'd like to say that I don't think of him anymore, but I do. He is the first thing that comes to mind when i watch a certain show we both loved, when i go into the city and when i think of summer. I really thought he was going to be different from all the immature assholes that I've encountered, but really he took the cake. So far he's been my biggest disappointment.

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