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Re: a snowy night in camdentown

chaynicole — Mon, 02 Feb 2009 18:50:38 -0000

books are amazing. i raided the neil gaiman books/section at my local bookstore today. i got a big check for financial aid for school and don't regret saying that a lot of that went into buying books today... XD
i was so happy to see that you had a new blog up. when i find that you've written, it's like coming home from work on a really shitty day and seeing that you're best friend has left a message on your machine :)
enjoy london! but please remember that they drive on the wrong side of the road over there! we'd hate for you to have another traffic incident.
LOVE LOVE LOVE.

Re: on Abortion, Rape, Art and Humor.

chaynicole — Tue, 03 Feb 2009 22:27:34 -0000

i wish i could just hug you right now.
i just want to hug you.

truthfully, im feeling a little guilty. i took this song probably a little too literally. i sent you an email about oasis, actually. don't know if you ever got it, though.
i appreciate and love every single word you said in this blog.

i was raped. twice. i considered abortion. i miscarried instead.
although i often find that im still in a dark, depressed, sad place a lot of the time, i strive every single day to find the good in it. i try to take it as lightly as i can. sometimes i find random people i barely/don't even know and just say, hey i was raped twice in my life. NOT because i want sympathy in any way. but because, you're right - there is no reason to sweep it all under the rug! it happens! it is a big part of a lot of lives!!.... okay, okay. i do feel a bit like a hypocrite because although i tell random people what has happened to me in the past, ive yet to tell the majority of my family... but part of that is being afraid that they will be angry with me. i told my mother when i was raped at 14 and she pretty much disowned me because of it. in her eyes, i was a whore.

amanda, i have a question for you. you dont have to answer if you don't want to. but im curious.
were you able to tell your family that you had been raped? did they know about your abortion?

anyways, i think i might print out this blog post of yours. your words are so powerful and meaningful and... i can't even begin to express how incredibly appreciative i am for this post.

*sending you hugs, just because youre so fucking amazing*

don't be freaked out or anything, but i envy you so much. you are incredibly strong in my eyes to be able to put these things out there, especially in such a pop-y, catchy song. i hope someday i can be as strong as you. i'll probably never sell a million records with a song talking lightly about rape, but i hope that i can find the strength that you have and be able to approach it in such a light manner.

to say it bluntly: the song is fucking amazing. you are fucking amazing. anyone who thinks otherwise is a complete douche.

thankyouthankyouthankyou :)

LOVE LOVE LOVE <3

-Chay

Re: on Abortion, Rape, Art and Humor.

chaynicole — Wed, 04 Feb 2009 11:07:30 -0000

*hugs*

Re: jetlag, butterfly club & chapters

chaynicole — Sun, 22 Feb 2009 22:30:32 -0000

we (your fans) will never treat you the way the stray cats were treated. we love you way too much. as hunta said in her reply, AFP love is a way of life for us.... i know it is for me!
jealous jealous jealous about the slumber party. totally wish i could have been there! i also really wish i could have seen you and neil in dublin.... AAAHHHH! that'd just be too cool :)
LOVE

Re: sydney opera house, girls all gray, brains on music

chaynicole — Thu, 26 Feb 2009 05:01:03 -0000

*applauds your views on street performers and just fucking ART in general*!!!
i live in a small town so there really are no street performers here.
the first BIG city i was in was dublin, ireland with my boyfriend of the time. he would get so pissed as we walked through the town because i stopped at every single fucking street performer, listened, watched, observed, and always gave money. it drove him NUTS as if we didn't have time for it. but it was more than worth my time. they added something incredibly special to my day and to my life. i applaud every street performer out there and every artist in the world. you are special. you can change the world.
thank you.

Re: tonight in pictures

chaynicole — Sat, 28 Feb 2009 15:40:51 -0000

Re: coming out, chocolate, death, waterbeds, love, business

chaynicole — Mon, 02 Mar 2009 21:20:14 -0000

<3
as always, fantastic blog. i think i love you more and more with every blog and twitter post. you're just... amazing :] and im totally jealous of the lifestyle you get to live - especially with getting to meet such amazing people!
take dear care of yourself, amanda fucking palmer.

-Chay

Re: this is a tree, not an ashtray.

chaynicole — Fri, 06 Mar 2009 13:28:21 -0000

i know it's hard sometimes, but just know that you are an amazing woman for putting up with all the shit and hard work that you do. i admire you for your strenght, ms palmer.
i'm hoping to come to the show in NC. i live in indiana. i'll be flying down to NC just for the concert. and since that's going to be getting a little pricey... any chances of ticket give-a-ways for the NC show or possibly any chance of you being extremely nice to one of your biggest fans? *fingers crossed* i promise to bring lots of love and ponies and possibly some art for you ;]
glad to see the vids are up on youtube right now. that whole situation is total bullshit. and question: did they take down the DD vids too? i went to find night recon the other night and couldnf find it anywhere..... what the hell man?
oh, and good news - i got my heartplane tattoo two days ago! i got it on the wrist that i have been mutilating for the past 5 years off and on. it makes me happy to be able to look there and see art as opposed to emotional damage.
keep on keeping on. glad you're enjoying australia so much!

<3 Chay

Re: this is a tree, not an ashtray.

chaynicole — Fri, 06 Mar 2009 13:29:51 -0000

oh, and when can we expect the "whats the use" video? just curious - im excited to see it :]

Re: the danger ensemble are leaving the building in an explosion of light

chaynicole — Sun, 08 Mar 2009 01:18:30 -0000

oh man. this made me cry.
the chemistry that you showed when performing live with the danger ensemble... just, wow. nothing even comes close. it was obvious to all of us the kind of relationship you all shared.
i want to thank you ms palmer and the entire danger ensemble and zoe and lyndon for creating an art that can never and will never be replicated. as much as it meant to you to perform with these guys, your performances touched our hearts just as much.
i will keep my eyes peeled for this wonderful group and see them any chance that i get in the future.
we thank YOU - all of you.
*bows*

<3 Chay

Re: a song for roadrunner records

chaynicole — Tue, 31 Mar 2009 02:38:44 -0000

i have nothing to say besides giving you love.
this song is amazing :]
fuck off, roadrunner.

-Chay

Re: email of the day

chaynicole — Wed, 01 Apr 2009 00:10:35 -0000

i already commented back on the 'box, but i thought i would say again here how lucky you are and it sounds like your mom is rad! :]
LOVE.

Re: suburban dispatch

chaynicole — Thu, 02 Apr 2009 01:59:12 -0000

im also sad that your blogging and twittering will slow down. but its very understandable. i hope you can get the rest you very well deserve very soon!!
can't wait for the book to come out!! can't wait to ORDER it!!! :]
oh, and i have an 11 year old sister that likes your stuff, too. amazing.
LOVE.

Re: the lexington police log

chaynicole — Thu, 02 Apr 2009 21:31:57 -0000

hahaha, i love this. i live in a REALLY small town, and your lexington reminds me of my upland.
great.
small towns are the shit :]
LOVE.

Re: the lexington play, and a short history.

chaynicole — Thu, 09 Apr 2009 02:19:47 -0000

amazing. thank you so much for sharing the stories of your high school theater. it sounds absolutely mind-blowing :]
and thank you for posting info on the play. i am very disappointed because i live in indiana and could never make it for the show (i have finals that week anyways). i really hope that you can get it filmed and can share it with us!!! that would be amazing!!
so happy that you are getting the time off you need and are enjoying working with the kids and your old theater teacher again - sounds like so much fun!
sending you lots of love and lots of good wishes for the play.
LOVE

-Chay

Re: the lexington play, and a short history.

chaynicole — Thu, 09 Apr 2009 02:21:31 -0000

PS: were the kids completely beside themselves when neil fucking gaiman showed?? i would have shit myself, haha!

Re: tickets for the play/secret LA show(?)….

chaynicole — Tue, 14 Apr 2009 20:02:12 -0000

i wish i had the extra money in my bank account to fly to boston, drive to lexington, and see this show!!! it sounds so fucking amazing!
and the video was really good!
have fun with this play (which is stupid for me to say because you probably already are) and good luck!!
also wish i could come to coachella... damn it. come back to chicago!! ;)
LOVE.

-Chay

Re: what i want for my birthday. really.

chaynicole — Thu, 30 Apr 2009 01:23:09 -0000

im thinking of the people i can share AFP with. i try to share AFP with everyone i can every single day. but i will make an extra effort today just for your birthday. great birthday wish!

LOVE.

Re: night. nazis. joy. love. why?

chaynicole — Mon, 04 May 2009 11:35:56 -0000

totally wish i could come to the play. it looks like it is going to be amazing.

what you wrote about taking things for granted in high school and then facing the "bureaucracy and the strangeness of it" all in college, i kind of teared up. i know exactly what you mean. i was involved so much with my high school band program. i spent hours with my directors, practicing, working, volunteering, bonding. i had it MADE in high school. we usually kicked ass at competitions, and we worked really hard, but we had FUN. we explored many different sides of music. we experimented with the serious, we dabbled in the comical. we were a big family with 100 members. we enjoyed what we were doing. and i thought this was my path in life.
when i got into college, i learned very quickly what was expected of me. everything was strictly work. they expected you to spend 12 hours in the music building everyday. which would have been fine, but the profs were mono-toned, workaholics, who didn't give a shit about you or the music. all they cared about was their paycheck. the other "musicians" there were cut-throat bitches. everything was a competition and within the first week it was pretty much decided who would make it and who wouldn't. despite my passion, despite my hard work, despite the first place medals and plaques back in my dorm room, i was considered to be with those who "wouldn't make it". despite the fact that i had played in my high school jazz band for four years, my audition for the jazz ensemble at college was in vain. i didn't even make it into the "wind ensemble", which consisted of all the college kids. instead, i was told to show up at the community band. there were 4 other college kids in it. we were amongst retired band directors who treated us students like shit and grumpy old people who had absolutely no respect for us.
to make a long story short, my piano teacher was in the hospital for a few weeks. the substitute, which was the head of the department, told me one day that i should drop piano because i would never amount to anything. i dropped the class. when my regular professor came back, she sent me an email asking why i had dropped the class - had had an A in there... -_-
then came one day i will never forget as long as i live. it was election day 2008. i went in for my weekly lessons with my sax prof. halfway through the lesson he stopped, looked at me, and asked, "Why didn't you just drop out by the withdraw date?" he was serious.
i packed my sax up, walked back to my dorm, and never set foot in that music building again.

sorry for my long-ass story. i guess your comments about the play just really brought it back for me. i think what you are doing with these kids is wonderful. i also think it's great that you get the chance to go back to where you came from, the high school and drama department that helped shape who you are, and have the opportunity to work with your old director and to help form a sort of family for these kids. they might not appreciate it now, but when they are grown and out of high school, maybe in college, maybe not for 30 more years, they'll stop and think about the family they had back in that drama department and how much this opportunity meant to them and maybe even changed their lives.
i am happy for you. enjoy your last week with them in rehearsal and good luck with the productions later this week.

sending you bunches of love,
Chay

Re: the onion cellar, the lexington play, and What It’s All About.

chaynicole — Thu, 14 May 2009 22:11:28 -0000

Love indeed. this show was amazing. i wept. the amount of dedication and love you all put into this production was so incredibly obvious to anyone who viewed this masterpiece. i wish so badly i could have been there in person but i am so thankful that you guys managed to webcast it for us all. thank you.
i wish i could just hug you. i think what you have done with these kids is fantastic. i guarantee that they needed and appreciated it all as much as you did.
*hug*

LOVE.

Re: peeling the onion

chaynicole — Fri, 15 May 2009 12:15:53 -0000

no words. just hugs.
*hugs*
and tons of love.
LOVE.

we'll always be here, standing behind you, giving you love and support. it's the least we can give back to you.

Re: twitter & the beautiful losers: #LOFNOTC

chaynicole — Fri, 22 May 2009 20:27:45 -0000

#LOFNOTC was so freaking awesome. it made my week! i didn't feel so bad for being home on friday night, knowing that my favorite rock star was having a case of the friday night loserness, too, haha ;]

Re: nyc. neil. nin. nap. naan?

chaynicole — Wed, 10 Jun 2009 02:55:13 -0000

your blog posts are never too long. i look forward to them and get all giddy when i see that you've written :) i love that you share so much with us. as your fans we are truly spoiled.
i'm so glad to hear that you and neil are so happy together - i am sending you guys hugs and love and all the best wishes in the world!!
also glad to hear that you are enjoying yourself after so much work the past year. you deserve it!

LOVE.

-Chay

Re: wasn’t this supposed to be my fucking week off?

chaynicole — Sun, 21 Jun 2009 13:07:59 -0000

Re: ninja beach show TODAY in LA!!! / regina video pix / lefsetz letter

chaynicole — Tue, 23 Jun 2009 23:07:15 -0000

twitter has just been AMAZING, not only you, but your fans as well!! i love the fact that you communicate with us and talk with us and CARE for us, unlike so many other musicians. you are truly one of a kind, amanda palmer. that's why we love you so much.
oooh, and im so psyched about getting my #LOFNOTC shirt - that was one of the most entertaining nights of my entire life (because, you know, i'm a loser like that, haha).

thank you for everything you do!!! i don't think i could ever say that enough!

enjoy the beach and your upcoming time with neil :)

LOVE.