http://disqus.com/by/MelanieLGillespie/enSat, 25 Jul 2009 02:37:15 -0000http://belovedschurch.org/2009/06/28/the-illusive-meaning-of-suffering/#comment-13306047<p>My heart is always imperfect<br>Filled with swells and falls<br>Up in my throat and down in my stomach</p><p>Amazing Grace saves a retch like me?<br>Before or after I splatter the bathroom floor?</p><p>Ah I can only imagine this hope <br> with tears streaming down my cheeks<br> Yet the truth I know of the whole light <br>shining through me and <br>connecting to all beings near and far, <br> we are here,<br>Fumbling across this tiny marble, <br> little glow snippets <br> like fireflies in our one purposed intensity.</p><p>I am primal, near feral, in my natural state.</p><p>The rest of me is some other me I barely know.</p><p>I am a channel for grace.</p><p>I wish to receive your light.</p><p>god touched my forehead today<br>a warm balm on my third eye<br>sending laughing honey waves of loving healing delight<br>wrapping around my soul.</p><p>god is love delight laughter joy<br>innocence that comes after knowledge</p><p>my guardian is so adult<br>and unmistakably male.<br>his broad smooth shoulders <br>and wide palms<br>bring me calm comfort strength surety.</p><p>we are together humbled with tears of amazement<br>when god’s childlikebuddhachrist love<br>melted over us like heated butterscotch,<br>like sunlight made liquid,<br>peace and healing.</p><p>that’s all.</p><p></p>MelanieLGillespieSat, 25 Jul 2009 02:37:15 -0000