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Re: Messiah

Em — Thu, 06 Aug 2009 06:04:26 -0000

Lupy!! My sexy friend in the Indias!

I was missing your longer than long comments and I'm really pleased one has been made! Your comments - my friend - moisten my minds eye and make my day lighter and full of potential journeys of intellect.

I'm talking shit.

First: you said: 'Anyway, you're not in this category, and so I won't elaborate... but I will later if you want me to' - PLEASE ELABORATE!

I do sometimes have a sense of looking at myself as others do and in those brief moments I see myself objectively and think, 'she is really ON IT' or 'she is very attractive'... when this state of objectivity occurs, it feels fucking amazing. Unfortunately, I'm incredibly self indulgent and over-think and allow myself to over-feel. Being imaginative and creative, I let my sense of narrative run away with me in these moments - usually towards depression and negative happenings and find myself wallowing and glued to the TV or Computer screen.

At times, it seems as though it is my boyfriend and me against the world. It feels like this because we know each other amazingly well and feel as though we have always been together. We are also opposites and I like that. He balances me and I him.

He does miss me as much as I miss him but he has a fuller day and less time to be fiddling around with the text messages. I have a lot more free time. So, a very plausible solution would be for me to fill up my day more so my mind and life are active, and time apart swims by.

Re: Messiah

Em — Thu, 06 Aug 2009 05:57:30 -0000

Thanks Jordan.

I'm finding it hard to phrase what I want to say in response to your comment.

I guess I am in part shying away but also, in shying away, I'm making this potentially long and difficult existence easier.

Well... the shying away has stopped now at least. Because I can't be arsed.

Re: Messiah

Em — Thu, 06 Aug 2009 05:55:45 -0000

Hey Courtney.

Yep - you got me!! The man kept me from doing the youtube but to be honest, I've been moving forward in my life - more so than before so it's all good.

I am a little like you in that I do worry if 'I love you' isn't said frequently BUT I have realised that by looking into his eyes, I can tell he loves me. I also know he finds me more attractive when I'm just being myself, making my usual strangely socially inappropriate comments and getting on with my life and work load.

I'm not looking forward to a week today when I'll be driving back to my home town and not seeing him for 1 - 1.5 weeks but I shall try and figure out some coping strategies so it's not too difficult to cope with.

Em x

Re: ...

Em — Thu, 06 Aug 2009 05:52:15 -0000

Ha ha... I'm certainly having my ass relaxed in a very heavenly place.

Ewwww... that did sound revolting didn't it!

Re: ...

Em — Thu, 06 Aug 2009 05:51:38 -0000

Ahhh yes.... I certainly didn't and have no concerns of this nature anymore!

Re: ...

Em — Thu, 06 Aug 2009 05:50:16 -0000

But you do have the courage!!! I find it such a relief. It's so easy and easier to take less responsibility for my ramblings...

Re: My laptop password is 'I Love Ian'.

Em — Thu, 06 Aug 2009 05:49:08 -0000

Thanks Fiona. Sorry for the very late reply. After a month, I can safely say, there is no pain anymore! x

Re: ...

Em — Thu, 06 Aug 2009 05:47:29 -0000

Huh??? Confused... not sure what you mean by this. No I don't smoke - not anymore. And when the funding comes, I shan't be spending any on cigarettes...

Re: My laptop password is 'I Love Ian'.

Em — Thu, 06 Aug 2009 05:46:05 -0000

I am rather attracted to Ibrahim.. yes. And of course Lupine who I've had the privilege of seeing on webcam and having a phone conversation with! Ha ha...

But alas... you will now know that I have indeed met the special someone.

Re: My Bloggy Wog

Em — Thu, 06 Aug 2009 05:44:45 -0000

Me too. Looks like me! And.. it ain't bad either!! x

Re: My Bloggy Wog

Em — Fri, 03 Jul 2009 07:36:34 -0000

Hi Mo,

I'm pretty glad I made this video now. In hindsight I spent a lot of time online to avoid spending time and sharing a bed with 'X'.

He's moved out now and our relationship is basically over. He is extremely insecure and it's so difficult to move on from this as we were together a long time but I feel trapped and stagnant in this relationship.

I had been avoiding time with 'real' people but lately, I've been putting more time into work and friends and a little less online. But I will continue my online endeavors and simple streamline them to they fit into my life a little better.

Thank you :-)

Re: My laptop password is 'I Love Ian'.

Em — Fri, 03 Jul 2009 07:33:44 -0000

Thanks Chris,
I'm going to get a DVD a bit later and stick all the photos onto it.
I think this will probably be the hardest thing to do. But it will stop be accidentally coming across them. There's no point rubbing salt into the wound.

Re: My laptop password is 'I Love Ian'.

Em — Fri, 03 Jul 2009 07:32:38 -0000

I checked out Torch and completely agree! I must start writing songs again xx

Re: My laptop password is 'I Love Ian'.

Em — Thu, 02 Jul 2009 20:24:52 -0000

Thanks Sue <3

I don't know about Torch... x

Re: My laptop password is 'I Love Ian'.

Em — Thu, 02 Jul 2009 19:34:18 -0000

Thank you sweetheart!
You are so wise. Really!
I might put the Salt and Pepper 'Let's Talk About Sex' tune on. That always does it for me.

Re: My laptop password is 'I Love Ian'.

Em — Thu, 02 Jul 2009 19:33:35 -0000

Oh God... you're right. I forgot about that!

Re: Wednesday to Wednesday

Em — Thu, 02 Jul 2009 18:49:28 -0000

Thanks :-) I have quite a good stride and speed.
I use a Pedometer, map my routes and time for average Kilometers per hour so it's accurate and I'm proud!

Re: Monday Food Blog (Adam)

Em — Thu, 02 Jul 2009 06:00:23 -0000

Shaes mother is a bad ass cook - that looks amazing!

Re: Tuesday Food Blog (Adam)

Em — Thu, 02 Jul 2009 05:59:51 -0000

Your food always looks divine!! I'm going to start sprouting again xx
Ha ha... sprouting...sounds rather... oo.. err... Missus!!

Anyway, where are your recent food blogs eh? x

Re: I Have Learnt This Past Two Weeks..

Em — Thu, 02 Jul 2009 05:57:07 -0000

Hey Hotstuff - thanks!! :-) I was completely nude you know! ;-) I took a few when I did the naked vlog. Aren't I a dirty little youtuber eh? x

Re: I Finished Couch 2 5 K!

Em — Sun, 28 Jun 2009 18:39:59 -0000

Thanks Fran! I think I might start Sea Kayaking as I did all my levels of Canoeing Training but stopped when I was 18. I live near the Sea and it's such a waste to not do something like that!! You're a sweetie. I was so glad to read on your latest vlog that you have had a long talk with your partner. xx

Re: I'm Around!

Em — Sun, 28 Jun 2009 18:38:34 -0000

Thanks Kelly <3

The running is getting better and better and it's a great way to not think about stuff like my b/f probs! LOL.. Thanks xxx

Re: My Bloggy Wog

Em — Sun, 28 Jun 2009 17:04:23 -0000

Thank you Marjie!

It has been a very productive and insightful 2 weeks and he moved out last Saturday.

Love to you

Em x

Re: My Bloggy Wog

Em — Sun, 28 Jun 2009 15:08:12 -0000

Hi Kristi,

Men do find it so easy to tell us we're being emotional, have PMT, hysterical etc... when they are unwilling to accept that we express ourselves differently and often in reaction to negativity from them. I'm really enjoying taking a stance in life based on self-care because so many things come into self care: health, positivity, socialising etc... and when we care for them all, I think we're truly happy.

Thank you for your comment!! x

Re: My Bloggy Wog

Em — Sun, 28 Jun 2009 15:05:53 -0000

Yep, you most certainly are reading it right.