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Re: Barely Sarcasm - Is This It — Don’t even tell me that this album is...

barelysarcasm — Fri, 24 Oct 2008 10:23:19 -0000

An Open Apology to Cardinals, CardinalFam & Fans

*To All,*

*This is Ryan. It is quite early on Friday and I need to say a few things. *

*I would like to apologize to my friends in the Cardinals, who are like
family to me, to our management and our Wise Elders who have taken great
care of us and myself for so many years , to Steve at Nasty who is rational
and protective and understanding and knows more about comics than anyone I
know (which is a lot) to CardinalCrew who build the dream in real time for
all of us, day in and out*

*and to you, Cardinal Fans, *

*I owe you an apology an explanation and wish to end the cycle of madness my
sickness turned craziness created.*

*I am deeply sorry for how I reacted to my illness, and the defeat I felt on
the last tour and the outrageous way I reacted and blame i placed
unnecessarily on others.*

*I was wrong.*

*I could not be more filled with regret and humbled at my own inability to
be mindful during my time of crisis.*

*The truth is, I know better and am not naturally inclined to this behavior.
It is something I felt like was long past me, but I am obviously still
learning how to deal and how to cope with my own misfortunes and the
sometimes trying world of trying to please many and maintain my own sense of
worth and dignity.*

*I made an awful mistake.*

*It is no fun to be away from home and to get sick, and even worse to be a
singer and lose the very thing which holds me to the Cardinals as ONE part
of a much larger, far more precious dream which has been the integration of
myself and my abilities towards the band, and a greater musical and creative
endeavor which is sharing my work and my heart and my soul and my mind and
also my weakness with those I love and trust and also SO MANY OF YOU who
carefully came along to explore this idea with us. *

*I am sorry I let you down. I let myself down too.*

*CARDINOLOGY and our band The CARDINALS has been the work of so many years
traveling, a dream Brad and I had all the way back to before I even recorded
my second ever solo album Gold, a mutual dream Neal Casal and I shared so so
many years ago, in fact, before I made Heartbreaker, and the trust
established between Chris and Brad which led him from the furthest recesses
of space to join our noise machine and Jon Graboff who is, in my opinion,
the authority on not only the advancement of Steel Guitar playing into
future realms but also now an obvious fashion icon (loud autumn colors-
Jon's socks and sneakers- coincidence??? i think not).. I apologize to you
from the bottom of my heavy metal heart.*

*I do not deal with defeat well, nor sickness, and in my brief tenure as
someone who had a rather upsetting and rough time of it for so long plugging
back into the Matrix of Reality has not been as easy or as painless as I
imagined. I make a lot of mistakes and my margin for error is widened by
senseless pride when I know I am faced with things I so want to change but
cannot.*

*It is obvious to me it is ME to has to learn to adapt. I see the
constraints I put on myself and I also see how hard I work and how often I
over-work to try and correct my past. It is the good work and it is also
humbling in that I am lucky enough that I maintained any sense of purpose as
I have let myself down so so many times since I began my journey musically.
And I have let others down so often that I am constantly embarrassed of my
actions.*

*I am struggling more often than not to forgive myself for behavior I
adopted long ago to "quick fix" whatever is before me in order to just get
to a next step where I might improve things, myself, or my relationships not
only in the musical world but otherwise and it can be more than exhausting
as I sometimes only see the negative- this is not healthy thinking and NOT
setting a good example. *

*I must continue to fight against this notion of ego and pride and feeling
attached more to the negative voices from the crowd and not the positive.*

*Sometimes that voice seems to me simply an echo of my own self-opinion and
this will always be "MY" struggle and I must continue to learn from my
mistakes and call myself out when I confuse that with my friends or the fans
or our team, because I always know at heart we are working together now, and
this was something I dreamed of, and something that has nurtured me back to
spiritual and musical health as well as mental.*

*Having said all this, long-winded as I am known to be, I simply dislike
letting anyone down ever, and this is inevitable as it is simply impossible
to please everyone.*

*When I lost my voice at the end of the last tour, when I least expected to
having felt like I was through the thick of the horrid flu that more or less
knocked nearly each of us out on the band bus, I was terrified. I was not
prepared for how to handle the situation. I struggled to continue but I also
knew that the more I was attempting to overcome the situation by continuing
to sing the more in jeopardy I was putting myself and the band as singing
with a broken voice can cause irreparable damage to a singing voice- and we
had already reluctantly cancelled two shows in the mid-west which we were
dying to play.*

*Long story short-*

*I have some learning to do, some forgiveness to allow myself and to ask
for, and I write this in hope that everyone who has cared for and followed
our band knows that I fully was in the wrong,*

*but that i must continue forward and hope for frogiveness as that is the
essence of our work.*

*In times like these, we all need as much hope as possible and one thing I
do know how to do, is offer that-*

*because if the shared Cardinal dream is anything- it has been shared hope.*

*With respect to all*

*and my sincerest apologies,*

*Ryan Adams.*

Re: Barely Sarcasm - Is This It — Don’t even tell me that this album is...

barelysarcasm — Fri, 24 Oct 2008 12:08:43 -0000

I need to figure out this replying stuff! :) I meant to send that to myself earlier, and needless to say - I ... replied with it (?)

I also, emailed you this earlier... shit, i should probably just post a lot of blogs so people lose this one in the recesses of time and space like, on page 2 of the blog (does anyone ever go to page 2?) sometimes I think that my best posts are behind me... that's a stupid thing to think.

Re: Barely Sarcasm - OMFG - I’m eating my hand!!!

barelysarcasm — Wed, 29 Oct 2008 12:14:55 -0000

Where!? is he behind me!? (GASP!) oh, no... those are just dvds... good looking out though.

Re: Barely Sarcasm - Tully’s got a onesy.

barelysarcasm — Wed, 29 Oct 2008 12:16:19 -0000

Is it because of the color? What color is yours?

Re: Barely Sarcasm - Tully’s got a onesy.

barelysarcasm — Wed, 29 Oct 2008 12:38:46 -0000

I mean, for realz. It's like - now all your street cred is shot from the lies... although, your street cred is also redeemed from the dinosaur onesy... so, good job!

Re: Barely Sarcasm - you would not believe how much pizza i can fit...

barelysarcasm — Wed, 29 Oct 2008 17:11:02 -0000

I am screwing this comment section up all over the place... this is hilarious.

Re: Barely Sarcasm - you would not believe how much pizza i can fit...

barelysarcasm — Wed, 29 Oct 2008 17:11:34 -0000

... i... wow...

damnit. you got me.

but, to make it even more bad ass... i was doing this at work, in the midst of the work day, just jamming pizza in my face.

Re: Barely Sarcasm - you would not believe how much pizza i can fit...

barelysarcasm — Wed, 29 Oct 2008 17:49:52 -0000

And then they send in security guards, dragging me kicking and muffled screaming (because of the pizza) out of the office - and I'm all chewing and stuff and I won't even stop.

Re: Barely Sarcasm - If the green lantern had a cell phone… and I’m not...

barelysarcasm — Wed, 29 Oct 2008 22:47:13 -0000

That picture is a nokia phone - it's super bad ass... Apparently nokia isn't
a shit show like I thought - they are one of the leaders in the world of
technology and phonedom - and they are the #1 service provider worldwide...
Shit.

um... here you go: http://www.youtube.com/watc...

you can also search NOKIA AEON online like on alta vista or google or
something and find it that way. Thanks for swinging by.

Re: Barely Sarcasm - Cate Blanchett or Bob Dylan or some prick? Prolly...

barelysarcasm — Mon, 03 Nov 2008 14:11:02 -0000

Sounds about right! haha. I <3 halloween.

Re: SPRING HEELED JACK (is awesome, and here's why)

barelysarcasm — Mon, 03 Nov 2008 14:53:38 -0000

Well this is simply a gratifying comment. Thank you. I shall proceed to post things on here whenever I don't want to focus on my writing of this movie...

Actually maybe I'll do both... (kettle drums)

Tanks & Handkerchiefs. J$

Re: Barely Sarcasm - So, I did a lot of things today, not really - but...

barelysarcasm — Tue, 04 Nov 2008 19:29:21 -0000

Wow - I'm glad that got a three-fer!!! Boosh.

Re: Barely Sarcasm - Every once in a while I miss Western...

barelysarcasm — Wed, 05 Nov 2008 20:20:11 -0000

Ah - I see that you have found disqus... do you LOVE It? I mean - out of curiosity.

Re: Barely Sarcasm - This is one of the coolest TV Campaigns I’ve seen...

barelysarcasm — Thu, 06 Nov 2008 18:11:35 -0000

Hahah - how do you know if you don't work on the show!?! WHAT IS HAPPENING?
(wink)

Re: Barely Sarcasm - So, I did a lot of things today, not really - but...

barelysarcasm — Thu, 06 Nov 2008 20:17:22 -0000

No reason to apologize - makes me feel special! :)

Re: I'm Writing a Movie, Bitch

barelysarcasm — Thu, 06 Nov 2008 20:31:05 -0000

I love the pumpkin spice latte with a special pumpkin / gingerbread donut or
some shit... I mean it's pretty heart warming.

For the first day all year it as cold this morning / last night / tonight -
and it reminds me of living in a real climate, not LA! Hence all the
nostalgia :)

Re: Barely Sarcasm - (via sarahsaturday) pretty girl + amps = hai, do...

barelysarcasm — Fri, 07 Nov 2008 10:52:49 -0000

yes m'friend. yes in fookin' deed :)

Re: Barely Sarcasm - whatcriscilikes: What in God’s name!?! As a...

barelysarcasm — Fri, 07 Nov 2008 13:13:11 -0000

Sure doesn't. Just the other day I ate a 3 musketeers and... well... yep!

Re: Barely Sarcasm - whatcriscilikes: What in God’s name!?! As a...

barelysarcasm — Fri, 07 Nov 2008 18:33:21 -0000

You'd be surprised how many places deliver! (and how many grocery stores
are dong-friendly!) :)

Re: (I now am) Agent 3Z- More magic visualized by colors.

barelysarcasm — Sat, 08 Nov 2008 14:55:25 -0000

Working on becoming followable... lerve the magic lights.

Re: Barely Sarcasm - I’m just trying to figure out why people can’t...

barelysarcasm — Sat, 08 Nov 2008 14:58:50 -0000

Yeah, It's weird - I have like.. twenty six followers (like a bad cult leader or something) and now it's givin' some folks a rough time... though I am flattered that someone would care enough to email me about it! :)

Saturday's mission = operation "become followable"

Re: (I now am) Agent 3Z- I love myself; I want you to love me When I feel...

barelysarcasm — Sat, 08 Nov 2008 17:32:23 -0000

!!! egads !!!

Re: Barely Sarcasm - Wowie. If nothing else, this right here is total...

barelysarcasm — Mon, 10 Nov 2008 02:18:22 -0000

a.) Thanks, and you're right - being vague about facts is helpful when
posting things on the internet, i'm not popular enough to legitimately just
let it all go for free, so someone's got to pay for it, I suppose, right?

2.) Yeah, just gotta remember to not forget to make sure I'm happy even when
trying to help others or be helpful. right?

cake.) I did I think... I don't know how to fix it, but I'm not sure that I
can without compromising myself, I don't think... Egads, this is weird.

Re: I have to stop posting stuff in my brain and instead...

barelysarcasm — Tue, 11 Nov 2008 03:41:26 -0000

I'm an assistant to the creator of a TV show... It's a pretty great job, I
just wish I wasn't in so much debt!

Re: Barely Sarcasm - Reasons You Might Die of Consumption in a 19th-Century Novel, in Order From Least Likely to Most Likely.

barelysarcasm — Fri, 14 Nov 2008 14:08:00 -0000

I know... I'm so soft down south because I don't know its origins.